Being the Awareness

 The other night in a dyad process there was spontaneously a clear sense of not believing what thoughts were saying, a shift "backwards" into the Awareness within which the thoughts were arising. What I am was very obviously not what thought was creating but much more the Awareness and Presence, the undefinable Mystery. As I contemplated this Awareness it became clear that it could only be "known" by objectifying it and creating a subject - object duality, which is not true knowing. Awareness could only truly be known by being it, not by looking at it from any outside viewpoint. But when that split in the mind dissolves there is no "knowing" in the normal sense - and no "thing" to know. What remains is a simplicity beyond all thought, a "not-knowing" which somehow is sensed to be much more true than any knowing. There is a strong sense of freedom and well-being in this "space" of not-knowing. Awareness then noticed the mind's tendency to move away from this, to find a more comfortable place for itself to rest. This "emptiness" is not attractive to thought, but it is complete contentment and rest for the Beingness.